Holdontoyourfaith, just another individual trying to find answers;
Especially in times of disaster and tragedy people all over the world seem to unite, denominations fade, cultural habits, ways of thinking and even racial and religion differences vanish.
Why is that? This question has and still keeps bothering my mind….
On the other hand, whenever the world is relatively “at peace” we start looking for reasons to focus on our individual well-being, stand for our cultural inheritance, the way “our group”, whether based on race, religion, neighborhood and even church, is being treated or rather mistreated by the “others”.
Somehow we never seem to be able to find a balance between the urge to fight each other and love each other.
One of the possible explanations for this peculiar attitude keeps popping up in my mind; we all know what it means to be hurt without a explainable reason or cause, we all long for comfort and support whenever we’re being treated wrong and we all long for someone or somebody understanding our hurt and pain with the ability to get us through these times in our lives.
On a more individual basis worldwide we might have different judgments or ideas about hurt people experience like handicaps, diseases, accidents or psychological pain through neglect or divorce. Some cultures accept some of these pains as justified in the light of how the individual or his/her family has been living his/their life and in some case we don’t even seem to bother because the individual belongs to a group deserving this wrath…. but a full scale disaster like the 2004 Tsunami or the recent earthquake in Haïti is different… we ALL feel this is unjust and that’s what unites us all!
Almost immediately we also try to find answers and one of the things we tend to question is the existence of an almighty God, a God permitting something like this to happen….. and so do I.
A more or less uniform religious answer is to state that we live in a fallen world ruled by satan but that doesn’t give me an answer on why little children are dying nor why innocent people have to be hit this hard… If God really is almighty, why couldn’t He prevent things like this to occur? I also can’t believe that a loving God who gave His only begotten Son to be sacrificed for our sins is punishing people by this so called “act of God”. If this was to be true, it would be an insult to the sacrifice of Christ once for all mankind. Not finding a justification often brings us to the opposite; a total rejection of God. One way or the other, the “Why” question is a dilemma I haven’t figured out (yet) but there must be a way to explain why things like this happen and why obviously all people can be effected. If there is a God He will know, but why is it so hard for me, for us, to understand His role?
But who am I to even start a discussion with the Almighty about what is right or wrong, or why disasters like this happen? I then feel like Job who tried to do the same but eventually was silenced by God speaking to him in Job 38-41, trying to explain the difference between what Job really knew compared to the knowledge, capabilities and reasoning of God.
This leaves me with still so many unanswered questions and I just can’t do anything else but hold on to my faith, knowing my sense of reality is so limited by what I see, hear, feel or taste compared to Gods reality; unlimited by time nor space and then I feel small….. very, very small.
In the end of the day it all comes down to two options; either God doesn’t exist and we all just are subject of circumstances. The other option is that we as humans by far will never be able to comprehend the reasoning of God within His perspective.
I’ll stick to the last one and hold on to His word, to His unfailing, unconditional and everlasting love and to what I know He has done for me in the past, trusting and hoping some day we will meet and things will be revealed to me.